[And then the final, battered layers of his carefully-maintained mask of composure, exhausted and limp as they are, shatter.]
But it was awful. It was awful--nine weeks where if I made one mistake they'd just--just blow up my people. I don't even know how the repairs to the courtyard of the Vilnius Cathedral are proceeding. Some--some television show held me hostage! They never had the right! It wasn't even just me, there were multiple nations and people and entire species under threat for what--for ratings? I made five people miserable because I couldn't take the chance they weren't bluffing, and those five people killed seven people--and four of them got themselves killed--for the same reason, because everyone has a price and if this place is good at anything it's good at completely fucking with your head and so everyone--everyone just played along. I played along and the designated killers played along and, and I knew.
2/4 I lied
But it was awful. It was awful--nine weeks where if I made one mistake they'd just--just blow up my people. I don't even know how the repairs to the courtyard of the Vilnius Cathedral are proceeding. Some--some television show held me hostage! They never had the right! It wasn't even just me, there were multiple nations and people and entire species under threat for what--for ratings? I made five people miserable because I couldn't take the chance they weren't bluffing, and those five people killed seven people--and four of them got themselves killed--for the same reason, because everyone has a price and if this place is good at anything it's good at completely fucking with your head and so everyone--everyone just played along. I played along and the designated killers played along and, and I knew.
[He laughs.] That's the worst part, Lenkija.