[SO THAT'S WHAT THIS IS ABOUT... the revelation actually tears Kanaya's heart out. Like figuratively but still. It's like glancing across the street and not being able to stop it without running through traffic. Though you probably could if you're a vampire. But you're a normal person, and powerless.]

That wasn't an altruistic act on my part... You were one of the most accepting towards my form and nature from the outset--I wanted to maintain your favor.

...Though I did also misunderstand the abundance of "the orange orb" and think they were at risk of starving to death if this game lasted as long as it has.